Angelica's Birth Story
The night before my second daughter was to be born I started having comfortable but regular contractions. They came five minutes apart for half an hour, so I called my mom and my girlfriend, Bridgette, to let them know that the big event might be soon around midnight. I was thirteen days past the estimated “due” date, so I was really emotionally ready. When labor stopped immediately after I hung up the phone, I decided to go to bed. I wasn’t having contractions when my husband John got up in the morning, so I let him go to work. Late in the morning, my 22-month-old daughter Christiana and I started the day as usual, getting breakfast and watching a little TV. Contractions started again, and although they weren’t painful, they were definitely strong, so I called John to wrap things up at work and get home as soon as possible. I looked forward to having his loving attention.
While waiting, Christiana and I showered and got dressed. I was very deliberate about showering and brushing my teeth and hair. Not only was this relaxing and invigorating, it was also a spiritually cleansing and satisfying personal ritual that really helped me to loosen up. This was in stark contrast to the disgust I had felt following my first daughter’s birth, not having had the chance to wash up before hand and then being bedridden for three days. I also donned a white embroidered lace nightgown that I had handmade for the occasion of my pregnancy and labor. I had purposefully kept it clean and ready the last two weeks preceding this day.
When Johnny got home around 12:30, we relaxed together on the couch. He breathed with me through contractions and was verbally encouraging. His loving presence was an important part of my opening up. By now we were both aware of the sensuality surrounding birth. Creating this child was an intimate act of love between the two of us, and birthing in a loving way simply and naturally completed that act. As a result of my healing, I was much more able to “open up” during this labor.
John and I also prayed together and called family for more prayer and emotional support. We listened to inspiring Christian praise music and I rocked in my rocking chair. I sucked on a grape popsicle. I ate lunch, and generally made myself comfortable. I also began getting supplies ready, like plastic sheeting and linens. I even set up the video camera, which in the excitement we ended up forgetting to use. When contractions got really strong, I made myself a little nest of pillows to lean on at the end of our spare bed, and told John that it was time to call Bridgette to come. When she arrived about an hour later, I was in the living room, concentrating on opening up and relaxing my pelvic muscles. I had an overwhelming feeling that if I relaxed enough, the baby would come out too fast. That feeling was affirmed every time I stood up, when gravity would cause the downward pressure to increase unbearably.
While Bridgette set to preparing homemade chicken soup in the kitchen, I went to my bedroom to spend some time alone. It felt incredibly appropriate to crawl the whole way on my hands and knees, and so, as ridiculous as it may seem I did. Christiana entertained herself and visited off and on throughout this stage of labor, tenderly lavishing hugs and kisses on me. I delighted in cuddling and playing with my two year old daughter, despite dire warnings that labor would frighten her from people who didn’t understand that she is like a soul mate to me.
When transition started, I panicked and began to have a few painful contractions, so I had Bridgette rub my lower back while John occupied Christiana’s attention. After a few minutes, I became fearful that I wouldn’t be able to handle the intensity of the contractions if this labor continued for as many hours as my first had. What I didn’t realize was that the baby was about to be born, and that the painless contractions I had been experiencing earlier were those “hours of labor”. Bridgette expressed her confidence in me, helping me to remember that I could regain control of the pain once the “pushing phase” started. After she suggested a few times that it would take the edge off the contractions, I gratefully crawled into the warm bath she prepared. As I sat upright in the tub, Bridgette vigorously swished water over my belly and labor immediately became bearable again. I then re-focused on my goal–a gentle and painless birth.
A few contractions later, I told Bridgette out of the blue that I wanted a break in the intensity of labor, and miraculously, it came. My prayers were answered with a long, contraction-free moment in which I was able to regroup and rest. Soon my body spoke again, clearly telling me that it was now time to push the baby out. Bridgette wondered aloud how far along I was, so I checked inside and was able to feel the head. What a delight! A few seconds later, there was a gush as my water broke. While pushing with an irresistible urge, I instinctively turned onto my hands and knees in the tub. I remember very clearly the intense pleasure of feeling my baby’s body move downward inside me. The spreading apart of my muscles and bones and the joy of voluntarily allowing my body to do it’s work was both arousing and exhilarating. An instant later, Bridgette could see the baby’s head, so she called John and Christiana to come into the bathroom. I savored the soft, wet, slightly furry head of the emerging new person pressing on my eager fingers.
John came and cupped the baby’s head in his hands, so I relaxed knowing she would not fall head first into the tub. With one more contraction and three pushes, Angelica Marie Morgan was born into her father’s hands! She was a bit purple, having birthed through the cord that had been around her neck, but after I turned over and rested her on my tummy, she quickly developed a healthy color. We all felt euphoric. After wrapping mom and baby in a towel, John suddenly remembered the video camera and began taping. When we identified and announced that the baby was a girl, Christiana, who had been standing by quietly, now exclaimed, “Baby sister! Baby sister!” I was utterly triumphant! “Pop a cork,” I said, “I feel like having a party!”, as Christiana reached into the tub to gently touch her sister for the first time. Then Bridgette went to stir the chicken soup, leaving us to have family time alone.
I had begun making plans to get the two of us out of the still warm tub when Angelica began to root around for her first meal, so I settled back in to nurse my four-minute-old daughter. When she was done, John and Bridgette helped us out of the tub and dried us off. Still connected to my daughter by her umbilical cord, I energetically walked over and settled us into our family bed. Once there, Angelica and Christiana nursed together.
A few minutes later, I felt another irresistible urge to push, and out came Angelica’s placenta into the disposable underpad I had been sitting on. Bridgette wrapped it and gently set it alongside us. Later, I cut the cord when the babies were contented, having finished nursing. John started making phone calls soon after, while I snuggled with my two little girls. By that time the delicious smell of chicken soup had spread throughout the house, so we all happily devoured our dinners while recalling and celebrating the afternoon’s fantastic events. Bridgette’s recipe for chicken soup still brings back great memories every time I make it.
Christiana and I ended the birthing day by sharing an herbal bath while Angelica acquainted herself with her father. I remember laughing with Bridgette over the irony that she had prepared the herbs to aid in healing my perineum so carefully, and I hadn’t even torn. I even used toilet paper without pain thirty minutes after giving birth. We chose not to disturb Angelica until she was well settled, so it was not until that night that we found out she weighed 8 lbs. 14 oz. with a head circumference of 14 inches. A few days later we measured her at 23 inches in length. Besides enjoying my labor and birth, I was positively high long afterwards. I was delighted to find that I was remarkably energetic the entire night. I even filmed my husband interacting with his new daughter just hours later from the living room couch.
The absence of intervention in my daughter’s birth was fully intentional. I believe in birth, and I trust life. Healthy babies come out when they are ready. I know that babies are meant to be born without anyone putting their hands inside their mothers. Cervixes dilate (or not) even when no one knows how dilated they are. Monitoring heart-rates, obsessing over dates, poking with needles, etc. do not make babies healthy or happy. Good genes, adequate maternal nutrition, high quality prenatal care, and education do that. In truth, most interventions cause stress, inhibit nature, and dangerously increase the need for more interventions. Even the relatively interference-free care given by most midwives often crosses nature’s boundaries. I was quite blessed to have the help of a friend who is truly trusting and aware of these things despite having been trained in midwifery.
One might also think that I was lucky to have only thirty minutes of painful labor, but I know that it wasn’t luck. I planned to birth this way from the start. Before I was even pregnant, I prepared myself by reading about, praying for, and believing in the kind of birth I wanted. I learned about the fear/pain cycle, and through prayer, allowed myself to be freed of anxiety about labor pain. Without involuntary muscular opposition brought on by fear, my body was able to work as it should–quickly and painlessly. I also attribute the speed and ease of my labor to the lack of outside influences. I didn’t have internal exams because I believe that this unnatural act causes the pelvic muscles to reflexively tense up, lengthening labor and increasing discomfort. I also know that the signs of labor’s stages (dilation for instance) can change radically in a short amount of time. I believe that when an “expert” assesses where a woman is in labor, and that assessment conflicts with what her body tells her, the news becomes a self fulfilling prophecy, and the woman becomes disheartened and exhausted unnecessarily. This helps explain why women in hospitals often give up on having a “natural” birth. They are having longer, harder labors because of their environment. Anyone who could refuse drugs in that situation deserves a medal!
I have been incredibly empowered and spiritually moved by my birth experience. I hope that the story of my daughter’s birth is encouraging to other families and influences them to seek out the information necessary for them to have the births they want.
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