Guilt, Worry and Jitters: Our First Vacation Without the Babies
We’re taking our first vacation—on New Year’s Eve to New York City—without our two babies, and it’s proving to be more nerve-wracking than I ever imagined. From mom guilt to extreme worry…. to even a bit of jitters over spending so much alone time with my husband for the first time in four years! What have I gotten myself into?
Before we were married, my husband and I loved to travel—independently and together. We hope and plan to raise little global citizens that learn about the world firsthand, but does family travel always mean with kids in tow? For the first time in four years, the hubs and I will be going on vacation—together. Alone. And we need it. But that doesn’t mean the mom guilt isn’t hitting hard.
I’m fortunate to have my mom fly in to watch the my two babies while the hubs and I are partying it up in Times Square. They’ll likely go to the children’s museum, spend plenty of time snuggling on the couch watching movies, and enjoy afternoons playing on their brand new wooden swing set that Abuela bought them. I know my kids will be safe, loved, and building memories with people that love them.
But why do I feel so bad?!
Leaving my kids overnight (for three nights!) is not something we’ve done before—let alone while being across the country in the process. However, the opportunity to reconnect with the man that has given me two little dreams, and a life that I can have only hoped to lead, is warranted. And needed. Like I said before, our marriage is stable, but not very sexy. A quick and festive jaunt tailor-made for adults is exactly what we need.
I’m also so worried—planning and thinking of any last thing my children will need while I’m away has become an obsession. Especially since my mom doesn’t live near us, making sure they’re all comfortable before we leave is a priority. My kids are used to routine—baby boy still needs a nap, my girl likes certain cartoons. And making sure my mom isn’t losing her mind and is able to enjoy this precious time with her grandkids is important, too.
Ultimately, I think I’ll be a stress case leading up to our departure. Once we’re in the air, I hope to relax. But really, I get goose bumps thinking of having time with my husband. I feel like a school girl thinking of holding his hand and walking around Central Park. After nearly 10 years together, that man still makes me feel like a princess.
Our first vacation without the babies is sure to be filled with mom guilt and worry—and plenty of memories made, too. For my husband and I, as well as my kids and mom, taking some time to recharge and reconnect is exactly what we all need going into the New Year.
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