The closer I get to delivering my baby, the more depressed I get. This baby is going up for adoption, but I really have not been thinking about that in a bad way at all lately. I just feel myself getting more depressed as the days go on. Is there something wrong with me?
I am so sorry to hear you are having such a hard time. Pregnancy can be a challenge under any circumstance, and when you make the (incredibly generous) decision to place a baby for adoption, it adds another layer of difficulty.
Depression is a common condition. It is common in women, it is common in pregnancy, and it is common during times of situational stress. So you've got a triple whammy. Depression is also common when there is a family history of mental health issues, a personal history of anxiety or depression in the past, or a drug or alcohol history.
If you are feeling suicidal, talk to a trusted friend or family member, or call your doctor or midwife right away. The national suicide prevention hotline is 1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433). Depression is treatable.
I am going to say it again: depression is treatable. Counseling and medications can both be immensely helpful, and safely used in pregnancy. Tell your doctor or midwife or another health professional how you are feeling. Work with your healthcare provider to decide if you want to try medications and/or if you would like a referral to a mental health professional. You are going through a hard time now, but things will get better. I wish you all the best.